Hi there,

Welcome to my very first blog post!

I wanted to use this first post to talk about why I’ve decided to start blogging. This is something that I’ve been wanting to do for a few years, actually. I just never knew what to write about, and I saw blogging as “just one more thing to do.”

Over the past year, I have felt called to expand my creativity outside of music, such as fiction writing, blogging (obviously), acting, and others. First, I had to get over the initial shock and terror that came with that. You see, I’ve spent the past eight to nine years of my life relentlessly pursuing music. I hadn’t realized that until I took a step back from everything. Now don’t worry, I am not discontinuing that pursuit, and it will continue to be just as obsessive as it always has been. I’ve gotten to the point of this journey where I’ve definitely realized that it is something that I couldn’t quit even if I tried. The only reason I would choose a different career path is if I found something years from now that made me happier than music does… even then I think it would be “music AND ___” not “music OR ____.” Music is forever, deal with it!

I’ve realized that I am the type of person who has always done a variety of things at once, always wearing different hats in life. In high school, that was balancing things like playing softball, music, art, and school of course. I thought that if I were to pursue something else now out of interest that I would be abandoning music. Not true at all. Everything else in my life always revolves around and is always applied to music. That's just the way it is. I spoke to a friend and fellow musician who was going through the same thing, and he told me that pursuing other forms of creativity actually helped him appreciate music more. Of course. Then I realized that I needed to break free of the box that I had built for myself.

For so long, that box has only been me and my music. After a while, when that is all that you have, it starts to not look so good. Or feel so good. I have used music as a shield to protect me from people, as an excuse for people not to know me, when in reality I was writing songs that are deeply personal and revealing of myself. Writing this out I see that there is not an alignment of beliefs and actions there. I had a shield that separated me from the very life I was supposed to be living. I guess what I’m saying is I was starting to feel a bit lackluster, and my friend, that is not me at all!

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This year I’ve started to let myself “just be,” following this calling wherever it takes me. This journey has just begun, and it’s already taken me out of my comfort zone a good bit (all the way to Ireland, in fact!). I hope to use blogging as a way for everyone to get to know me personally. I am really looking forward to writing blog posts! Just so you know, these won’t really have any sort of theme – they will just be me writing about things that I like/feel/want to talk about.

I wanted to close this out by encouraging you to pursue whatever is pulling at your heart. That one thing that makes you say "Oh, but it's too late to start doing that," or "I could never do that," but deep down inside you can feel it. What came to your mind? I am one to tell you that it can be absolutely terrifying to pursue the unknown, but I also believe that if we are being called to something, we should follow.

Thanks for reading this… see you in my next post!

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Jessica Bitsura

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